Not a worry in the world. Complete freedom from material thoughts and responsibilities. No one to care for, no one to satisfy. No expectations, no heartbreaks, no complications, no unfulfilled dreams, no dreams. Never have to do something if not feel like it.
Why can't life be like that? Life was once a straight line.....when the hell did it become such a complicated mess of curves? Contradicting and criss-crossing each other.
How many days has it been since I've slept peacefully? How many days will I have to go on still? I'm 26 and I'm already tired. I want a bed under a starry sky and I want to sleep....sleep without worry. No care...no fear...no alarm clock....
Sometimes I lay awake on my bed at night, looking at the dark ceiling and try to remember the highlights of my life. And after a while, it suddenly hits me....I have NO highlights! Covered more than 1/3rd of an average persons life, and yet to do anything worth remembering! I'm doing something terrible wrong with my life....now what was it I was put on the Earth to do?
I remember I promised myself I'd become a globetrotter when I grow up. I'd travel all around the world, hitchhiking....walking....working my way through. And look what I"ve become! How ironical can it be that a boy who once wanted to travel the world now sits in an air tight glass building from morning to night! I would laugh if it was not so sick!
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